Hello readers, if any at all. Let’s talk depression!
How many of you have went to bed feeling defeated? Hell, how many of you haven’t even gotten out of bed for days because you are feeling defeated? I’m here with you.
Depression for me, looked like not brushing my hair for days, if not weeks. Not showering, It looked like crumbling under pressure, hating every fiber of my being.. It looked like two Walmart bags full of hair because I was so stressed out. It looked like isolating myself from everyone out of fear.
The worst part about depression? You appear fine, you’re not physically deteriorating like you are mentally and emotionally. You feel like you’re drowning when you’re above water. The worst part is no one can see how broken you truly are, even if you told them they wouldn’t understand. It’s ok to not be okay! It’s ok to have bad days, it’s ok if you don’t do that load of laundry today or this week! Don’t be so hard on yourself my love! It’s ok! Youre more loved than you know, you’re stronger than you think.. & One day, you’ll be yourself again!
Let me say this… YOU DONT HAVE TO PRETEND TO BE OKAY! You don’t have to pretend you have it all together! You don’t have to pretend to be happy, you’re perfectly fine being where you are! With every test comes a testimony, and one day you’ll be picking people up with your story! You see I don’t envy people who have it all together, I envy the ones who are perfectly imperfect! The ones that embrace the chaos, the ones that have this sense of peace through the crazy! I aspire to be like you!
Don’t count the bad days, count the times you felt like you couldn’t stand but did! Count the times you felt like giving up, but pushed through! You are resilient! You see nothing but damaged goods, I see something good in the making!! You’re not finished yet! When you see broken I see mended!
Feel free to reach out, to me, loved ones! You’re never alone, chances are someone feels the same way too! We all have been fragile, reach out! Speak up! I’m not okay today and that’s ok